Hi my kinky friends.

 

This particular post isn't anything sexy. I know most of you come here to escape reality and dive into a spinning bliss of naughty pleasures so I apologize for perhaps boring you. But the reality of the situation is that I am just a person, like you are, and I have many different aspects to my personality. One of that being my inner struggle to strive for peace inside my soul. I don't mean that in a religious way, I'm not religious by any means. I have no issues with those who are but I tried religion and it just wasn't for me. I'm more into earth spirituality and trying my hardest to spread positivity. It's one of the reason why I enjoy doing what I do here. I believe sexuality is a huge part of our natural, healthy living system and shouldn't be oppressed. I like being able to make people feel comfortable and ok with what turns them on. I myself have been shamed in many ways and made to be an outcast many times throughout my life and I would never want to do that to another person. But I digress, as I am beginning to get off course on why I was writing this blog to begin with.

 

I began my fitness journey last winter. I solely started for mental health reasons. I started off with running and now I also weight train. When my younger brother died this past September, I cannot emphasize enough how much exercise has helped me cope with his loss. Don't get me wrong, I'm still a mess about it and am trying so hard to get my shit back together, but exercise helped me destress and make me feel something better than what I feel normally. As much as I do this for mental health, I'm pretty pumped about the physical effects its had on me as well. I am currently in the best shape of my life, and that's saying something for a former pro wrestler! Not only do I look fucking fantastic, my strength has improved so much. I can do tasks now that I previously had difficulty with at complete ease. Although I have lost a lot of fans due to my physical change (people really like the bigger version of Sarah!), I know I will make new fans happy in due time. So I am really appreciative that you are here, reading this, and enjoying the content I have to offer. 

 

What prompted me to write this journal entry was something I just accomplished this morning. I entered a 10k trail race to help raise money for retired K9 police dogs. I will admit, this past winter I have been slacking on my running. I am continously weight training 3-4 times a week but my running has taken a back seat for reasons I cannot give because they are really just excuses. So, I was a little worried about being able to even complete the damn thing. Usually when I enter a race my only goal is to just complete it. I'm not really a competitive person and again I only do this for my mental health so what place I get doesn't really matter to me. But, of course, I am curious as to where I stood in comparison to others. I do not have the total number amount of people who participated, although I do know the number was at least close to 200, and I am so very proud to say that I placed 56th overall and 15th for my division. I completed this 10k (6.20 miles) trail race in 1 hour 6 minutes 45 seconds. Not too bad for someone who has only run a handful of times these last few months!!!! 

 

My next race is a big one. It's a 12 mile trail race considered to be one of the most difficult in New England. I think I should actually start training for this one, don't you? :P It's going to be wonderful though, I just know it.

 

I really hope that if you are going through a dark time in your life or maybe just looking for something to make you feel alive again you consider giving exercise a try. It has a plethora of health benefits, both physical and mental. And if you think it's not for you well let me tell you a little secret- you're currently speaking to a girl who even when I was wrestling I rarely did any cardio; not to mention the fact that I used to be a beer/wine lover sittin' on my bum playing tons of World of Warcraft. (I still play WoW but I am sober now) So if you think you could never be this person, you are dead wrong. You can. You just gotta start off small and work your way up. Never give up on yourself. Always believe in yourself. Love yourself. You are so capable of more than you could ever imagine. 

 

Thank you for your support, whether you are an older fan or someone new. You make me feel good about being a good person. I wouldn't be able to do this without your support. So, let's take care of each other, shall we? Make a promise to yourself to do a little physical activity just once or twice a week. Start from there and blossom into your own thing. And if you wanna chat about it, I'm here.

 

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo,

Sarah Michelle